Assignment 1

Well my day, I am trying to decide quite a few things right now. I need to decide between some classes and an internship. There is one class that I have straight up slept through every single day so far ( that's four classes) which typically you need to drop a course after 3 absences so I'm guessin that my chances of taking that class this semester ...and passing....are slim to none.  I am bound to sleep through it again at some point DOOM. So that class is easy enough but the next I'm not so certain about. It's a Planning and Management class, and there is 1 too many people in the class. I originally thought that I would drop it- I just had this feeling- of course I "just had a feeling" about living in Keeble this year too, which I am not doing. I am in Cross. So yeah, weird. Maybe I am practicing self-fulfilling prophecy at the moment.  Yikes. Noo likey. I surely hope not. Anywho, I am also looking at internships and I picked my top four, next top three, maybes, and made a no pile.  I looked each organization up today online while I was eating lunch in the cafeteria. Note: There are a lot of really great websites and blogs for the organizations I'm looking at- I'll need to step it up. :) No big deal, story of my life. Rise to the challenge, I will. Also, I'm considering whether to join Kingdom Players this semester or not.  I was looking up monologues.and found one by Dory from Finding Nemo. HA. what if I did? Then I found Gollum.  From the Lord of the Rings . Gosh that's perfect. As if I can't feel that character completely and to the fullest. I'm actually really good at his voice as well. I was totally joking at first thinking it would be hysterical...but I'm almost considering it now. It's out there enough I would have to be completely in character....and It would be funny and take guts. HA. How awkward then they just sit there staring like Oh my word what did she just do. I would die. There's no way I can do this.  This blog, journal entry thing is really interesting because It's not something I would ever publish for people to read- it's not reader friendly in any way.  I'm not writing for an audience. But it's also not at all an expression of what I'm thinking, just a safe guard in case anyone should ever read this. And I'm also not chronicling. It's not an accurate portrayal of what's happened. So I'm not sure what this is. It's real real weird. I guess just wasted time fulfilling an assignment. I should really make it useful. But writing is writing (HA) all the same, no difference to me. chuckle, chuckle, chuckle.  Maybe I should start making stuff up. explore the imagination. It's a magnificent thing ya know. So I hear.  Alright well, as a minimum I should perhaps start capitalizing my letters and sentences and writing something organized and thoughtful and of a topic. Maybe I shall. Maybe...I shall.  Also, I should begin typing and spelling properly.  It's about time. 20 years old. Good Gracious. 20. This is my life. The time of my life. What am I doing? Smile and go live this lovely life. it's beautiful and grand and full of happiness. Never carry another burden. Just kidding . Carry it all you want so long as you put it down when it's time and you can put it down and you will put it down and you will live and love life and feel happiness and joy too, and never ever ever get back together-I mean  whaaaat?  Never ever ever let myself be defeated. EVER. I will never. Defeat is not in my dictionary. Hahhahaha this is literally the most hysterical thing I've ever written. Self motivation.  Here we go. Let's find me.  Because I don't even recognize myself anymore. Quarter Life Crisis, it might be penned. I shall read again and that shall improve my  mind.  Family and Marriage counseling. I want that book. I will read it all. tonight. right now. Okay I'm going to go get it. This is long enough.