Oh this week.

This has been quite a week. the weekend was interesting. It was very difficult and not a pretty sight to tell of so perhaps I'll skip that. Monday I was late for my internship and had not showered.  It was fine though. I didn't see Ryan at all-Thank God.  I wore a nice outfit though with my grey trench coat because it was raining. I went to internship then all my classes then I went to the Psychology meeting about sleep. It was not nearly as interesting as I thought it would be. Devastating.  I had a PRSSA meeting that I left the sleep session for to attend.  Robyn Derrybarry came in and spoke.  I don't think she liked our group much-she left pretty quick after. That's alright she's a major type A personality. egh. Stress me out.  I get super mellow around personalities like that because I by nature try to balance them so I then sound like a straight up hippie. That real life friends.  After that I can't remember to save my life what I did.  I think I chilled in the room with my roommate.  We were crazy.  Then Tuesday came. I awoke at 10 and read a text about The Office and instantly knew it would be a grand day. I swung my feet over the side of my bunk and yelled " It's gonna be a great day roommate!" she laughed as she fixed her hair in the mirror.  I slid down and went straight to my computer to listen to a friends cheery and personally sentimental playlist. Ah how grand.   By the way my roommates alarm clock went off an hour late and she didn't know it so she showed up an hour late for her first class. Ha. but hey, that's life right? So I went to chapel and sat with my good friends Aubrey and Taylor in the front row.  I was on the aisle chair so basically in the center of the chapel. just kidding. that was completely dramatic.  The speaker was phenomenal though. I loved him.  And he loved us, because he brought us truth and shared it beautifully. At least I thin it's truth.  Note I think, not necessarily believe. If I believed then perhaps my heart would have been changed, moved, or something of the sort.  Then I went to lunch. Then I went to the PCSU and I began my blog for CUFI for my Innovation and Social Media class. I haven't finished rewriting it yet. Note to self: do that. After class I went to my internship. I was late. guh. unacceptable. then I left and it was an icy rain and I was stuck in a traffic jam for over an hour.  I was concerned I would run out of gas.  Good new though: I got my Debit card in yesterday. Thank God! So i stopped and got gas. I called the fam during that time.  Ya know it's funny because it's so true when it rains it pours. But that's besides the point, maybe I'll come back to it later.  So after internship and traveling home, I went to work out with a friend Danielle and then I went walking in the ice cold rain.  Actually I went to play pool but people were already playing.  So I walked in the cold rain and thought and touch the things around me.  I hurt inside and then is when I laughed and realized the irony of the weather.  Like I said, It's always true. When it rains it pours. It pours icy piercing cold. I was walking when sweet Casey saw me and pulled her car over to see if I was okay.  I smiled, "oh yeah! I'm great!" she grabbed my hand and said "If you need anything let me know." But she seemed convinced by my response that I was just great. And I continued on. I walked til I found a well lit, dry spot to sit under a tree. and I thought. and I wrote, in my little red book. Then a friend and I ran through the rain to a get away car and we sped though the rain to a waffle house to spend time with two sweet dear friends, meet their beloved friend of old, and well of course drink coke and eat cheesy eggs.  Then I returned to my wee little room in cross (on my way back I was told there was a spring in my step-perhaps so..) and I listened to my roommate tell me of the woes of her life and slowly I drifted off to sleep..... Only to wake this Wednesday morning 3 hours late for my internship.  That's when I knew my karma was off. and the day began slowly but surely to spin out of control and by mid day i scrambled with haste to collect the shattered pieces of my existence as the uncontainable twister destroyed everything before my eyes and all I could do was but watch with a nervous smile and a twitching brow as I swept up a clear path trying to tidy the destruction I was watching.  and it still was and still is happening. But I'll continue to clean this area  while mass destruction continues and I'll go by way that lead so I can see the destruction and know what is happening so that I can know where I must head to direct others to clean at some future point.  Should anyone decide to enter my barren fields and offer to help clean.  It may be a very very long while before any thing grows here again.  Maybe I should just build while all is flattened and destroyed.  Rather than plant and toil for years and see very little growth. we'll see. I'm off.